Ruminating
Lately I’ve been wondering how I can slow my brain down to operate at the same speed as the rest of my being. It used to be that I lived a highly active lifestyle and was always on the move, but in the last year, it really feels like my life has come to almost a complete standstill.
My brain however, continues to whir as if my life depends on it.
I suppose my life does depend on it, to some extent. But mostly, my brain is rapidfire about things that I do not need to consider so frequently to survive.
Right now it is car. I want to buy a car.
It feels good to put all my energy into purchasing a car, a way to distract myself from the other pointless things that clutter my mind. I don’t know anything about cars, and I can’t imagine myself learning anything about cars to make a considered purchase, but it’s fun to pretend. I am obsessed with low investment thinking. It won’t cost me anything but time.
How much time can I let pass me by without having completed anything?